lol well I appreciate all you’re saying ; w ;
I normally dwell really hard on stuff like this all the time, but I normally keep it to myself because all I do is make people worry and I end up feeling worse than what I started, even when people try to help/calm me down/etc.
BUT this has been on my mind since- well- I guess since I started the darn thing? @__@ But its gotten increasingly worse recently, so I just had to vent.
I guess even when venting I can get all melodramatic orz
with copying other OC’s, its kinda hard when I had an idea in my head, but could never get it out on paper because I’m bad at rping (and writing, in general) so when I see other people doing the kind of characterization I had originally wanted, its like “oh. well, I guess I can’t go that route now, I’d look like a copy cat” XD’ so its like lol whoops too late @__@
idk I’m running on like 3-4 hours of sleep so I’m prolly just being more dumb than usual.
But thanks for helping me and talking it out with me and stuff ; w ;